So the girl I was dating, Sarah, is now seeing someone else.
Kind of weird for me.
It is after midnight and I cannot sleep. I just found out today. I just feel funny. I have all day. I am not really upset, as I know that feeling. I am not sad, same thing. I just feel almost like – well, I honestly don’t know.
I have been observing my thoughts and ideas today. And I hear my ego say things, like I am not good enough, or it is for the better. And I just smile. In side that is. Because none of it is true
Anything the ego things, anything the ego makes up, all the stories it tells us are simply that, stories the ego made up. Not true.
And it is those thoughts that create the feelings we experience.
So I have been asking myself, what is helpful for all. That is when I get a “nicer” feeling – as I know it is best for Sarah to be dating who she is now. And not me.
The funniest part of it all, We broke up because we both knew we were not spending the rest of our life together, (she wants kids and I don’t) and I wanted to be looking for my life partner. Someone I find beautiful who doesn’t want kids who wants to transcend with me.
And she is the first one in a relationship. Kind of perfect I think. She figured out what she wanted, in detail, and now she is in a relationship with someone like that. In the process of discovering more about them to see if that is what she really wants.
What is helpful for all?
Until Next time |
