So I have thought for a while I was following my inner knowing and listening to the higher wisdom of Myself.
I found out the other day, I have not been doing it as much as I thought.
To take 100% responsibility for your life, emotions, feelings, health, wealth, or anything that you “experience” is the ultimate freedom.
Because if you are 100% responsible, you have 100% control of how you feel, what you have, what you don’t have, etc. or at least 100% control of how you respond.
And so with that, I didn’t like letting outside “stuff” “make me” feel any certain way. Like feeling happy “because” I was riding bike, or feeling sad because something bad happened, or feeling mad “because” something didn’t go my way.
And I became very good at not being attached to the outcome of what is happening around me.
I thought this was a good thing, thought this was me following my Inner knowing.
Well, it isn’t.
So then I was faced with a dilemma. Be unattached and be happy, peaceful and loving? Or do “things” in the world that other people would often attribute to “making them” feel a certain way?
What if the ego is just trying to keep me in the illusion by giving up my power of feeling good because of this event or this thing that happened.
I know it was trying to keep me in the illusion by being unattached to how things turned out.
So what do I “do”?
Let it all go and be happy. Not planning what is happening. Letting the wisdom from within guide me to what is happening.
A few weeks ago I wrote about listening for your plans vs. making your plans.
Well, that includes how to respond and what emotions to be aiming for.
So when I let the planning come from my inner wisdom, there were no emotions to have or not to have. There were just experiencing the emotions that were or were not there. Knowing that they are part of the dream, the illusion, mean nothing, and focus on God. |
