We all have ego’s. What I am talking about is not an inflated vision of yourself.
I am talking about the self who you think you are.
We form an identity when we are young, and then we believe for usually the rest of our lives, that is who we are. It is just they way we are, our nature.
But it is not.
You are a child of God. Anything that is not worthy of GOD is not you. It is your identity and who you believe yourself to be in this limited body.
I have been noticing a lot lately my ego and all the tricky ways it lies to us. Makes us feel guilty, and makes us think we are not good enough.
I was at a bar drunker than I have ever been in my life. Ever. And I noticed my thoughts of my ego, as not my own thoughts. I saw how people make out with others because unconsciously, or consciously, they do not think they are a child of God. So they find someone to make out with so they can feel good about themselves for a while. I started seeing that to some extent, this is part of the reason why many people make out with anyone.
We say that we are attracted to them, or they are hot, or cute, or whatever we say. But we find a characteristic in them we like and admire, and because a person with the characteristic is interested in us, we feel better about ourselves. We feel more worthy in ourselves.
I also see this is in part how love works. People find characteristics they like in people, and then they fall in love with that person, because it makes them feel better because someone that they admire likes them.
What makes it show up so differently is that we all admire different things. Some people like humor, some people like Latino women, some people like red headed men, some like trustworthy, etc, etc.
But whatever you judge as more valuable than something else, you will be attracted to and when it is attracted to you we feel better.
The problem is, we only feel better temporarily. Because then we want the next thing, and the next, and the next.
We are told by commercials, media, tv stars, that we are not good enough as we are. That we need X to be good enough, and even then, you will not be good enough.
There is a great video by Brian Swimme called canticle to the cosmos.
It talks about how this religion of consumerism came about, as well as proves God exists, and shows us how to move into a new era that is not dependent on consumerism to be happy.
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